I know exactly what this feels like, and I know exactly how much it terrifies a narcissist, because I experienced it personally with my own narcissistic father.
When I started separating from my father at a very young age, he was absolutely shocked. He had built a reality where I was supposed to be completely dependent on him—completely strapped by his financial and emotional control.
When you’re dealing with family violence, unfortunately, there is usually no outside help. Society turns a blind eye, and you realize very quickly that you just have to do it on your own.
For me, the only way I was ever going to be able to escape, remain away, and find my independence was through money. I’ll just say it as it is: Money makes escape possible. Without it, you’re forced to endure.
But then something miraculous happened. At a very young age, money started coming into my life.
And I want to be clear: it was not just about the cash. It was not just random business success. It felt as if a path was literally being paved for me in the dark.
Everything started falling together—one thing would happen, and then another—with such incredible synchronicity that I felt an undeniable presence opening doors for me.
Even though the push sometimes felt extreme, and even though I was in a massive amount of pain, a force made itself known to me.
It was as if the universe was saying, “You are not going to rot in this rut. You’re not going to stay stuck in this prison forever. You will get out, and I will make sure every situation, every incident happens just to make your escape possible.”
It felt like all the forces in the universe had gathered together just to protect me.
Eventually, all that pain made sense, and this absolutely terrified my narcissistic father. He watched my life taking off. He watched me gaining independence, and he could not handle it.
He would look me in the face and try to curse my progress. He would say, “This is not the age when you should be earning. This is the age when people try.” People get extremely desperate. Look at you.
“This money is what will spoil and destroy your life,” and he said it in the guise of being a well-wisher. He wanted me desperate. He wanted me broken.
But his predictions never came true. That destruction never happened to me.
And that is what got him so deeply scared. He could not wrap his head around the fact that God had equipped me with knowledge, power, and the capabilities—not only to help myself, but to help others.
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